Ilie Mocanu (en)

These lines, like the previous ones, are written after my release from prison. I heard a news item on the radio about curing diseases through radiation and vibrations. The results were obtained by a group of researchers. This reminds me of some events years ago. This treatment by scientific means makes me aware of some personal observations which I have not been able to communicate to anyone and still cannot, so I can only entrust them now, in writing, to the future. I am of the opinion that the origin of the universe lies in the emission of vibrations. I […]

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For 12 and a half years, I went through the rigours of the Securitate dungeons of Uranus[1], Jilava, Gherla, the Baia Sprie and Cavnic lead mines, the T.B.C. hospital in Târgu-Ocna and finally Aiud. Here, seriously ill, I stayed until my release. Between life and death, my main preoccupation was constant prayer, which sometimes continued in my sleep through the hesychast prayer[2]. Following the admonition of the Apostle Paul, “Pray without ceasing” (I Thess 5:17), I received the uncreated light. The heavens opened to me[3] and what I saw and felt, rather than thought, I put down in verse, for […]

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Sine ira in Studio[1] I will review the events that led me to Aiud, where it began and where I knew the divine light and where, against all the vicissitudes and conditions of gradual extinction, I lived the most divine moments of my life. For lack of adequate expression, I may say less than I have lived, but I will say no more than the truth.

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From the trial I was brought back to Jilava for a short time. During this time, I was daily overwhelmed by worldly thoughts, regrets about the conditions of life in the past, the thought of my lost hopes, the thought of my books, my child and my wife, who were left without support or means of subsistence, and the thought of their social ostracism.

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After a few years in the lead mines, for reasons I suspected, we were taken out of the mines and sent to Gherla prison. Conditions[1] had changed for the better. At Gherla we were put in larger rooms where there were 30-40 prisoners at a time.

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From Gherla we went to Târgu Ocna with chains on our legs and handcuffs on our hands, all of us with sentences of more than 10 years. There they kept us in chains for another week and then took them off. Here we had other problems. Snitching, as it was called in the prison, was in full bloom. Many people died without being treated, just because they didn’t want to betray others, that is, to bring others to prison. I knew names… but I no longer remember them.

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This is where I stayed the longest… and this is where God’s grace fell upon me. The grace of the Holy Spirit, by the will of the Father and the Son and with the help of the Blessed Virgin, descended upon His unfaithful servant and revealed to me the Kingdom of Heaven. In various fragments, I will present events, phenomena or, to put it more modestly, revelations (if God permits it and if it is not too bold to say so, for which, if I am wrong, I ask Him to forgive me). Much of what I am about to […]

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I was in one of the cells on the ground floor of the central building of Aiud prison, in solitary confinement, together with about 70 TB patients. We had been on hunger strike for several days, demanding that the shutters to be removed from our windows and that we be allowed to take a daily walk in the yard. It was summer and the air had become unbearable and suffocating. After a few days they began to force-feed us… and those who resisted… had their teeth knocked out. One of us heard the harsh voice of a militiaman whom he […]

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Also in Aiud. There were four of us in the cell. A cell where I later found out a prisoner had committed suicide. So it was a cell haunted by demons. Two of us prayed a lot, while the other two crossed themselves but did not pray. One was a simple, faithful farmer, while the other, who didn’t pray, was a psychopath who tormented us all and made our lives more and more bitter. And here we heard the walls of the cell pounding and thundering, especially when we prayed. But I was not the only one to hear these […]

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“I am the light of the world. He who follows Me shall not walk in darkness, but have the light of life.” (John 8:12). I desired the Light of life, the heavenly Sun and the Kingdom of heaven with all the fire of my heart. To this end, I put away every worldly thought, and gradually, more and more, the light came, sprang from my heart and surrounded me. On countless occasions I tried to free myself, to free myself from all sin and guilt, from all temptation and sin, to live without sin, but I did not succeed even here, […]

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Once again, on hesychastic prayer and its revelations. I began the mystical practice of the prayer of the heart on the basis of some indications I had received from others. But first of all, at the beginning, I relied on two principles: 1. love, aspiration, attraction towards God, and 2. the unshakable, clear as daylight belief that God exists and can do anything. Scientifically, I only knew that energy in a closed circuit increases its potential and is not lost, as an engineer at the Măgurele Atomic Institute near Bucharest told me. And so it was! And I prayed the […]

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My trial was short and forceful. I had a public defender who, at one point, discreetly told me that, because of events in Greece (there was fighting between the communists and the Greek government at the time), our legal classification, that of the crime of conspiracy against the social order, would be changed to that of murder and conspiracy against the social order, for which I would get 5 to 25 years instead of 1 to 7 years. We knew this before the trial, because some people had arrived in Jilava before our trial, and for the same reasons for […]

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