The informers

After a week’s work, some of us were taken to the torture chambers for reasons known only to them. Țurcanu knew that they still had something more to pay from Pitești. And he kept his word.

Some moralists of the Christian Church claim that most of the words spoken by people are liars, in relations between individuals, in the family, in collectives, in ideologies, in literature, in history, in false science and in state politics. How much truth there is in this statement! If we lived the truth, there would be the Kingdom of God on earth, but we live the lie, deliberately, consciously denying the truth; that is what the world is, the reign of Satan. God teaches us: “It must be yes if it is yes, and not if it is no, whatever goes beyond this comes from the evil one.

One evening, about ten days after we had been taken to work, Țurcanu and Popa Țanu went through the rooms of those who were working in the workshop and were all assigned to one place.

Țurcanu looked like a real executioner, as I had rarely seen him. Popa Țanu, next to him, with the same, perhaps more expressive, but mongoloid air: “Bandits, this is perhaps the last attempt, when the regime and we want to check whether, after what you have gone through and what you have seen, you can implement and prove that you are determined to expose every reactionary bandit who is against the regime, so that the regime can have confidence in you.”

“Those in Gherla who did the debunkings haven’t said a word so far, wherever they have gone, what’s more, they unmasked all the bandits in the factory and now we know them and we know who we are dealing with. My friend, Popa Țanu, can confirm what I said” (as it turned out, they were friends, like the snake and the frog).

Popa, with Lenin-like Mongoloid cunning, tells us:

“Bandits, don’t play with fire. Among those I exposed, there was not one who did not do what the regime wanted and what I told them”.

To which Țurcanu adds:

“I told you, when you came out of the factory, not to let the earth know where you passed through, both here and in freedom. Then you will have to find out from every bandit what he thinks, what he has done in his life, what relations he has with other bandits and what he plans to do in the future. From tomorrow, every bandit among you will show how he knows how to serve the party and do his duty, as it demands of us”.

Țurcanu’s statements were linked to those of Zeller, who had told us in front of the camera: “You will expose all the bandits in our republic”. Until then, we had debunked each other by beating and breaking bones, by telling everything we knew about each other and about those who were free, as a result of the terrible tortures we had suffered and were still suffering; now we were forced, against our will, to commit the abominable sin of hypocrisy. That is to say, to present ourselves to our fellow men as honest men, and to have them open their souls to us and say things that are not usually said, especially in prison. We all made that mistake out of honesty, out of trust. And now we had to throw our brothers, who thought we were honest, under the bus.

According to what Țurcanu and Popa Țanu had said, we were thus forced by torture to harm our fellow human beings who had done us no harm.

If those who suffered unbearable tortures in Pitești and Gherla, to the point of madness and despair, had a human excuse, what was the excuse of those who, of their own free will, aware that they were harming their fellow human beings, had committed themselves to selling their souls to Satan for a bowl of lentil soup, a social position or a better life?

What a terrible night (to put it mildly) we had in Gherla, when Țurcanu forced us to act under the mask of hypocrisy, causing so much harm to our fellow human beings! Is it possible to explain and rationally understand this fact, when we have to commit evil without our will, often we are aware of it? What a horror it is to know that you’re doing evil and still do it!

As you can see, the occult’s plan to make us what they wanted us to be, ordinary informers, has succeeded to some extent.

Allow me to return to an observation made by my good friend, the engineer Costică Cristescu, leader of the peasant youth in the capital in 1946, who, although an atheist and an invalid without a right hand, made the following confession to me:

“My dear friend, I was sent to work in the yard; I had gone through unmaskings and, to tell you the truth, I did not understand this phenomenon until now, but what I confess to you is more than shocking:”

“I was in the prison yard, as I was every morning, and this is what I noticed: when the students, brooms in hand, pretending to work, came out of the torture chambers and went to the workshops, I saw on their faces such horror, such fear and such despair that I was terrified to the depths of my being. When I saw these tortured children, I compared them to demons, terrified by the order of Satan, who had sent them from hell to earth to deceive people. I confess that I noticed the same expression on the faces of the pupils until Țurcanu left Gherla”.

These observations were made by a non-believer and an unbeliever. A clearer and more authentic picture could not be given.

What Cristescu said about the young people of Gherla, the Holy Fathers say the same thing in their visions about the demons who come to tempt and deceive people. These children and young people were tortured and tormented and then sent, like demons, into the workshops to deceive and bring back information about those who worked there.

O Lord, who will believe us, who will understand us, except You, our Lord, who alone knows the heart of man and the depths of his conscience?

We are not trying to convince anyone, not even our comrades, and least of all others (except our enemies). We ask honest people – insofar as they are able and willing to ask questions – to answer: what would they have done in our place?

(Dumitru Bordeianu – Confessions from the Swamp of Despair)